If someone were to ask

If someone were to ask me why I was crying today I would tell them that there are some days that feel unbearable. Some days it can be overwhelming to  remember the losses in my life. 

I Cry because I went outside today  to enjoy this beautiful day but instead all I could do was remember how my home at one time was a place of beauty and joy in my life.  It used to be beautiful I used to take good care of it.  Today I feel helpless to do so. The bushes are overgrown there's weeds where there should be flowers and there is little I can do about it. It reminds me that I lost my ability to function in this world in a way that allows me to do the things that I love. There are dead plants and weeds where there should be life sprouting up from the ground. That is why I cried today. It has been eight long years since the stroke on March 29th 2009. Everyday I pray that God give me the strength to not cry. I pray to God that he will help me to see a Little bit of Beauty in my world that grows smaller every day.  One of the  saddest thing is that there is no one around to ask  why I am crying.